free my brain. i'm alive in the sun.

note to self: read blue like jazz again

i love beautiful things.

for no reason at all,

just simply,

i love beauty.

and i realized the other day it had been a while

since i took the time to simply admire.

to just appreciate the beautiful things

of my life right now.

since i just danced to danced.

created a boquet.

took a nap in the sun,

went for a discovery walk.

crawled through an underground tunnel.

played in the dirt.

counted the stars

cut out pictures i liked,

dreamed aloud

read a book for pleasure

wrote a short story,

wrote a poem,

changed my opinion about something

mixed paints together with my fingers,

invited change

collected fallen leaves.

and i think these are the things that make you the most alive.

(i like those words a lot)

i don't live in reality.

that is what i am finding.

the areas of my life that reflect that ...

well mainly my financial one.

oh and the one involving time.

yeah i am always late,

always over drafting.

you could ask me if i could drive to

arkansas in one day or less,

and i would say yes.

easily a day trip.

the world is much closer together in my reality.

i don't use a brush

i don't need sleep

i'd rather buy art and tat up than eat.

counseling i think makes me more crazy

i live in an emotional world,

i jump for joy in my extreme highs,

and mourn and hurt in my lows.

"steph, maybe this hurt, torn, really huge disappointed feeling - this experience of loss, is one of growth. forcing limits." - a person i highly admire.

this photo made my heart sing

how tender a moment

a mom and her little boy.

[i want 5 boys.]

this is my newmantra.

to live in the now.

to not expect anything from the day,

and to just be.

rawr.

lions

i am all about lions these days.

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time for some rest.

oh and some dance.

last thought

i really do not know how

to let people care

for me

peace yall.